{"id":1102,"date":"2015-09-30T09:01:30","date_gmt":"2015-09-30T17:01:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bayesianinvestor.com\/blog\/?p=1102"},"modified":"2023-02-12T10:00:52","modified_gmt":"2023-02-12T18:00:52","slug":"conversational-spontaneity","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bayesianinvestor.com\/blog\/index.php\/2015\/09\/30\/conversational-spontaneity\/","title":{"rendered":"Conversational Spontaneity"},"content":{"rendered":"

One small part of the recent (June 2015) CFAR workshop<\/a> caused a significant improvement in how I interact with people. I’ve become more spontaneous about interacting with people.<\/p>\n

For several years I’ve suspected that I ought to learn how to do improv-style exercises, but standard improv classes felt ineffective. I’ve since figured out that their implied obligation for me to come up with something to say caused some sort of negative association with attempts at spontaneity when I failed to think of anything to say. That negative reaction was a large obstacle to learning new habits.<\/p>\n

Deeply ingrained habits seem to cause some part of my subconscious mind that searches for ideas or generates words to decide that it can’t come up with anything worthy of conscious attention. That leaves me in a state that I roughly describe as a blank mind (i.e. either no verbal content at the conscious level, or I generate not-very-useful meta-thoughts reacting to the lack of appropriate words).<\/p>\n

Since I much more frequently regret failing to say something than I regret mistakenly saying something hastily that I should have known not to say, it seems like I’ve got one or more subconscious filters that has consistently erred in being too cautious about generating speech. I tried introspecting for ways to simply tell that filter to be less cautious, but I accomplished nothing that way.<\/p>\n

I also tried paying attention to signs that I’d filtered something out (pauses in my flow of words seem to be reliable indicators) in hopes that I could sometimes identify the discarded thoughts. I hoped to reward myself for noticing the ideas as the filter started to discard them, and train the filter to learn that I value conscious access to those ideas. Yet I never seem to detect those ideas, so that strategy failed.<\/p>\n

What finally worked was that I practiced informal versions of improv exercises in which I rewarded myself [*]<\/a> for saying silly things (alone or in a practice session with Robert) without putting myself in a situation where I felt an immediate obligation to say anything unusual.<\/p>\n

In a few weeks I could tell that I was more confident in social contexts and more able to come up with things to say.<\/p>\n

I feel less introverted, in the sense that a given amount of conversation tires me less than it used to. Blogging also seems to require a bit less energy.<\/p>\n

I feel somewhat less anxiety (and relatedly, less distraction from background noise), maybe due to my increased social confidence.<\/p>\n

I may have become slightly more creative in a variety of contexts.<\/p>\n

I hypothesize that the filtering module was rather attached to a feeling of identity along the lines of “Peter is a person who is cautious about what he says” long after the consciously accessible parts of my mind decided I should weaken that identity. Actually trying out a different identity was more important to altering some beliefs that were deeply buried in my subconscious than was conscious choice about what to believe.<\/p>\n

I wonder what other subconscious attachments to an identity are constraining me?<\/p>\n

Something still seems missing from my social interactions: I still tend to feel passive and become just a spectator. That seems like a promising candidate for an area where I ought to alter some subconscious beliefs. But I find it harder to focus on a comfortable vision for an alternative identity: aiming to be a leader in a group conversation feels uncomfortable in a way that aiming to be spontaneous\/creative never felt.<\/p>\n

Thanks to John Salvatier and Anna Salamon for the advice that helped me accomplish this.<\/p>\n

[*]<\/a> – I only know how to do very weak self-rewards (telling myself to be happy), but that was all I needed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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